Now I know what's the exact feeling of getting fainted coz I personally experienced it this afternoon!!!
It's not fun coz I hit the chair with my arm and it's blue black now...
When I was lying down, I was thinking what for I need to push myself so hard? Go for interviews for jobs and need to worry whether I'm doing good enough during the interview in order to get the offer while the other hand need to prepare for exams...It's all because of YOU!!!
I don't know whether this is a good thing or not coz I realized my centre of concentration had been placed on you. This is not what usually happened on me because I used to be kinda a self-centered person, but now it's totally different case!!
It really frighten me up when I realized this is actually what happening right now. I kinda afraid of myself of who am I turning to be because I will ask more and more from you and this is not what I want. I find it hard to pull myself out from this current situation because all I'm doing now is because of you, and only you.
Where me?
Am I lost? What's the point I need to push myself so hard, I can slack through the time instead if I want. I know you are trying to tell me that these thing take time, but I just can't help myself taking off the pressure from me.
GOSH!!!
