DAMN

I dont understand why everytime seems to be my fault again? Damn it!!!

Yes, you always have ur own reason to do things, as always, i mean always!!

It seems everytime Im the one who started it and by the end Im the one who creating the problems and I deserved to be punished!! Dont I?

Obviously, I do. The fact is im really the one who started it and the one who create the problems and the one who deserved to be punished!! GREAT

Now only I realize there is such a talent hidden inside me. Right.

Fine, no fine. Im so fucking weird, I couldnt live in peace whereby I need to find a point to argue and make my life so miserable like now! Ok, whatever u do is right, it just to increase ur tiredness and give u a good sleep at night. U asked me: Is there any problem with it? So, what's ur problem now? What a good question, a question that make me silent because me, myself and I are the only problem now!!

Me is the root cause and I go and bring out the root cause and finally bear the consequences myself!!

It's always my fault, as always, I mean ALWAYS!!!

It's ashamed!!

I'm the one who always need to understand. Im the one who always live in a naive world. Im the one who always create the problem and Im the one who always dont behave well.

Im so fucking tired of being as if my level of thinking have to same as urs, as I understand what u r doing is right and to think as if I've exeperienced all those stuff.

Im so tired of trying so hard to close the gap, it's really fucking tired!!!!!!!

And for all the hard works, what do I get? Seems like I have to revise on my Cost-Benefit Analysis because it proves how poor am I in this topic!!!

Why don't u turnaround, step a foot back and try to understand me? I doubt u ever think of that.

U wont know how stress am I now because in ur mind, no stress can be more than paying the housing loan, car loan, mother loan, whatever loan it is and ofcourse when the job's problems come in.

The point is, U NEVER TRY TO UNDERSTAND ME!!!!!

FCUK U!!!

FCUK MJ!!!

no idea

Now I know what's the exact feeling of getting fainted coz I personally experienced it this afternoon!!!

It's not fun coz I hit the chair with my arm and it's blue black now...

When I was lying down, I was thinking what for I need to push myself so hard? Go for interviews for jobs and need to worry whether I'm doing good enough during the interview in order to get the offer while the other hand need to prepare for exams...It's all because of YOU!!!

I don't know whether this is a good thing or not coz I realized my centre of concentration had been placed on you. This is not what usually happened on me because I used to be kinda a self-centered person, but now it's totally different case!!

It really frighten me up when I realized this is actually what happening right now. I kinda afraid of myself of who am I turning to be because I will ask more and more from you and this is not what I want. I find it hard to pull myself out from this current situation because all I'm doing now is because of you, and only you.

Where me?

Am I lost? What's the point I need to push myself so hard, I can slack through the time instead if I want. I know you are trying to tell me that these thing take time, but I just can't help myself taking off the pressure from me.

GOSH!!!

The day is arrived!!

The day I've been longing for is arrived!!

Baby is coming up!!

Nothing can describe my happiness right now. :)

motivation, where?

Exam just another month to go...

and where's my motivation to study?

I don't seem motivated from the beginning of this sem, that's really demotivating...

The subjects are so bored, anyway, accounting designed to be dull and bored.

Concentration needed...damn!!